Update and Time Off

There is not too much to update. It is the same thing, levels go up, do everything right, and not pregnant. Shaylor and I have had a lot of discussion lately and we are going to take the next couple of months off. We need to, well really, I need to get myself back together. Every month it gets harder and harder and I just can't do it right now. The heartache and depression it causes is too much right now for me. So the next couple of months will be nice to just regroup and enjoy my husband. I am going to take a couple of months off of the blog too. It is a constant reminder of the hardships we are going through. Unless something happens, then there won't be any updates for a couple of months. I am sorry to depress you, but I hope you understand.

Before I go, I want to just send a special thanks to my family and Tara and Dusty. The support they have shown to us goes above and beyond what I could ever imagine.

I appreciate all the prayers, PLEASE, PLEASE don't stop. We need them now more than ever.

Hopefully the next time we update, there will be good news.

What a month!

There has been so much going on. I know many of you are just waiting to hear what news we have this month. There is nothing positive to report. My levels went up again to 57. This is incredible as the doctor put it. So after we found that out, we were anxiously waiting. I had decided to not test until last Sat. That morning I started. It was so hard because my period was late and we were just hoping for the best. I have probably taken it harder this month than any other month. I am trying to stay strong and positive but I am beat down. I know it is in God's hands, but I don't know what else we can do. We are going on 14 months of this trying business. I guess right now, we are talking about our options and maybe other routes we can go down. I am hoping God will give us some answers as to what we need to do. I know it has started bothering Shaylor more and more, but he is such a supportive husband and trying to stay positive for me. He keeps reassuring me that we will have our day. I don't know if I am taking it so hardthis month because I ovulated on Shaylor's birthday, and i just knew that would be the best birthday present I could have given him. Shortly after Shaylor's birthday, my grandmother passed away. I was hoping to have a little bambino breweing away, so I could say "You were in Mommy's tummy the last days of Granny's life." I am hoping Granny will send some baby dust our way from Heaven. It has just been a hard month for us. I know many of you are praying, and we appreciate it more than words can express. Please don't stop now, and if anything PRAY HARDER PLEASE! I know that is asking a lot, but yall are our family and I feel like I can ask that of you.

I am going to the doctor in the morning for an u/s to check my ovaries. I am hoping to have enough courage to ask some pretty in depth questions and to try to get some answers. I will start round 3 of clomid tomorrow. Let's just pray that the third time is the charm!

LOVE YOU ALL!

The Latest News

I got an awful e-mail this morning from Grandma, (Shaylor's gradnmother), mister, her dog passed away this morning. It is just heart breaking. We were over there yesterday and we all knew that he wouldn't make it much longer but didn't realize it was going to happen this morning. Grandma wantes some pictures of Mister and luckily we got some yesterday. So, say a little prayer for Grandma, as I am sure it will be a hard adjustment.

On the baby making... I started Clomid again on Friday. The doctor gave us some things to change. She was really surprised that I was not pregnant since my levels were up so high. Knowing what is going to be happening the next couple of weeks, I know that it was a God thing why we didn't get pregnant. I have faith and trust God that everything will happen at the right time. Please don't stop praying now.

Nothing

There is nothing to tell yall about the progress. I am really sorry. I will let you know something when I do.

It worked

I just wanted to give my blog family an update since you are family to me too. I heard from the doctor this morning and my levels went up! They went from a 9 to a 39.4. That is a HUGE increase for those of you that don't understand the levels thing. Dr. Luck wanted them at a 15 and well we surpassed that by a lot. So, PRAISE GOD, the Clomid worked!!!!!!!! We are still unsure about being pregnant, won't know that for a few more days.

THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU! Thank you for all your prayers, but don't stop now!

Waiting Game

So I am sure many of you are dying to know what's going on, no I know not really, but I thought I would let you know.

Finished the medicine, was pretty emotional, but made it through. Shaylor got a little testy with me, but overall he understood. Last week we did the ovulation kit and on Friday we got a positive surge, which means I released a hormone that you release right before ovulation. So that is a good thing. I am going on Saturday to get blood taken. This will check my progestrone levels and see if I did ovulate. Hopefully we will have some news next week about our pregress.

The waiting game is what is killing me right now. I am one of those people i want to know now and don't want to have to wait a couple of weeks. In the past year, I have learned it is not that easy.

February marked a year of us trying. Needless to say, it has been a long, hard 12 months. People say it usually takes a year, so I am hoping that our year marks the pregnancy of a little bambino. Shaylor and I both are very anxious. When I know something, I will pass it on to yall.

I know I say this every time, but thank you so much for your prayers and please continue to pray. We wouldn't be able to make it through this without prayer. We love you all!

Day 5

Today is the last day of the Clomid. The side effects haven't been too bad. I have just had really bad hot flashes. I will take that. Yesterday and today, I seem to be a little bit moddier than usual. My class probably gets it more than Shaylor. I always feel bad and apologize to them. They didn't do anything wrong! So now it is jsut the waiting game! I am very anxious but I know our time will come. All I can ask is for all of you to keep praying! It means a lot to us. All prayers are always welcome.

On the bright side of things, Addison Hope Richards was born on the 28th. We are leaving today to Houston so we can see our new niece. We are really excited and can't wait to be with Shaylor's family again.