Tuesday, March 31, 2009

What a month!

There has been so much going on. I know many of you are just waiting to hear what news we have this month. There is nothing positive to report. My levels went up again to 57. This is incredible as the doctor put it. So after we found that out, we were anxiously waiting. I had decided to not test until last Sat. That morning I started. It was so hard because my period was late and we were just hoping for the best. I have probably taken it harder this month than any other month. I am trying to stay strong and positive but I am beat down. I know it is in God's hands, but I don't know what else we can do. We are going on 14 months of this trying business. I guess right now, we are talking about our options and maybe other routes we can go down. I am hoping God will give us some answers as to what we need to do. I know it has started bothering Shaylor more and more, but he is such a supportive husband and trying to stay positive for me. He keeps reassuring me that we will have our day. I don't know if I am taking it so hardthis month because I ovulated on Shaylor's birthday, and i just knew that would be the best birthday present I could have given him. Shortly after Shaylor's birthday, my grandmother passed away. I was hoping to have a little bambino breweing away, so I could say "You were in Mommy's tummy the last days of Granny's life." I am hoping Granny will send some baby dust our way from Heaven. It has just been a hard month for us. I know many of you are praying, and we appreciate it more than words can express. Please don't stop now, and if anything PRAY HARDER PLEASE! I know that is asking a lot, but yall are our family and I feel like I can ask that of you.

I am going to the doctor in the morning for an u/s to check my ovaries. I am hoping to have enough courage to ask some pretty in depth questions and to try to get some answers. I will start round 3 of clomid tomorrow. Let's just pray that the third time is the charm!


Monday, March 2, 2009

The Latest News

I got an awful e-mail this morning from Grandma, (Shaylor's gradnmother), mister, her dog passed away this morning. It is just heart breaking. We were over there yesterday and we all knew that he wouldn't make it much longer but didn't realize it was going to happen this morning. Grandma wantes some pictures of Mister and luckily we got some yesterday. So, say a little prayer for Grandma, as I am sure it will be a hard adjustment.

On the baby making... I started Clomid again on Friday. The doctor gave us some things to change. She was really surprised that I was not pregnant since my levels were up so high. Knowing what is going to be happening the next couple of weeks, I know that it was a God thing why we didn't get pregnant. I have faith and trust God that everything will happen at the right time. Please don't stop praying now.