The Waiting Game…AGAIN!!!!

So we sit and we wait again! Seems like when it comes to getting pregnant that’s what you have to do. I went on Tuesday to get Day 21 blood drawn. (Day 21 is to check ovulation and progesterone.) When we first started this battle, my progesterone was low and I had to go on Clomid. My body responded very well to it, but I did NOT like the side effects and neither did Shaylor. I have not taken it since August and it’s been a nice break. We took the blood on Tuesday to see if my levels went up so hopefully we don’t have to take it any more. When your levels are low you risk a high chance of a miscarriage. After all this, the last thing we want is to deal with that.

So, here we are waiting for the results and wondering what is in store for us in the coming weeks.

ANSWERS!!!!!!!!

I am all recovered and ready to share the news we received!!!!! We got answers and that is all we hoped and prayed for. Here was our experience on Wednesday, March 17th...

We, my dad, Shaylor, and I, got to the surgical center Wednesday morning. We got all checked in and I was feeling at peace, which is a shock for those that know me. I am a very anxious person. The OR we were going to had some complications and the surgery before ours took a lot longer than expected. I went in 2 hours later than planned. The doctor told Shaylor and I it would be a 45 min to an hour procedure, and they wheeled me off and Shay went back to the waiting room with my dad. The surgery ended up taking an hour and half. Our doctor told us on our follow up appointment she was just about finished and decided to check one more place, under the uterus. She picked up the uterus and it was covered in Endometriosis. She scraped it all out and got rid of it. All of the other reproductive organs look great. She said the best time for us to conceive is in the next 3-6 months. We are excited and hopeful again. It is a GREAT feeling!!!!!! The only down part about endometriosis is it slowly comes back, so in about 2 years we will have to do this again. I will take that.

I can't even began to tell you what a huge relief it is knowing that there was something stopping us from getting pregnant and we would not have been able to conceive until it was cleaned out. I told Shaylor all the people that said just relax and then it will happen, I want to go to each and every one of them and say NO it wouldn't have, we have a medical issue.

Thank you for your continued support and prayers. We could not have made it this far without the power of prayer and love and support from yall. I hope soon I can give you an updated report with good news.

Wednesday

For those that read and want updates about our struggle with infertility... here is the latest. We have taken quite a long time off, since Sept. We are on the bandwagon again. On Wednesday, at 7:00 am we are having a diagnostic laparoscopy to see if there is an underlying issue that has not shown up on any of the other test or sonograms that we have done. I will be out of commission for about 5 days, it just depends on the severity of the problem, if any. My parents are coming to be here with us during this time. Really, my poor dad has to take care of me. My mom will be at a training in Dallas so we will see her at night, and Shaylor has to work, Wed. night, Thurs, and Friday. Then it will be his turn on Sat. and Sun. I am hoping, and praying that this gives us some answers. Over 2 years of dealing with infertility has taken a toll on us. We are so ready to be parents and know that our time is coming soon. Please as Wednesday approaches if you think about it, we would appreciate any prayers.

Not Really Sure How to Title This!

I am so sorry to all of you that actually read our blog to see updates in our baby making process. We took a couple of months off, starting in May. The end of May, I got really sick and had an awful pain in my side. Shaylor decided at midnight to take me to the ER. Those of you who know me, know that I DO NOT go to the doctor, so I reluctant to go. In the end, I am so glad he made me. I had to get my appendix out and we made it just before it ruptured. So that put a little damper in our time off because of the recovery time. We were forced to take time off.

In July, Shaylor and I prayed and talked about what we wanted to do. We decided with it being the summer that we would take our next step which was for us to do an IUI, which is simply artificial insemination. The first month we did it, I only had one mature follicle, the nurse tried to keep us positive by telling us you only need one. Well, that one didn't take. When we went in for a sonogram, they found a cyst on my ovaries. They think my follicle never released. So, in August we tried again. This time we had 3 mature follicles. We felt pretty confident, the doctor and nurse, that if this was going to work, it would be in August. Well, guess what, it didn't. We were devastated. Shaylor and I sat down again and just talked about what we wanted to do. It was nice in the summer to do the IUIs. I had to go to the doctor about 6 times in the month for monitoring and measuring and whatever else we needed. With school starting back up, I just told Shaylor I don't see how I am going to be able to go that much, so we decided to put things back on hold.

At this point, we were both so discouraged. We started looking into adoption and maybe some of our other options. We had an appointment with the doctor to discuss what her plan was for us. So, in the doctor world, she wants to do a scope and go in surgically with cameras and check for scar tissue, endometriosis on the inside of my ovaries (they have already checked the outside), clean my tubes AGAIN, and just have a closer look at what might be stopping my eggs from releasing.

She gave me hope again. I was ready to throw in the towel and be done, but not now. We aren't going to make any decisions right now as to what we are going to do. Shaylor and I are going to sit down in January and talk again about what we want to do.

I never thought having a baby would ever be this hard. It has been such a long hard battle. I know when God finally does bless us with a child, it will mean that much more to us because of all the struggles we have faced.

Please continue to pray for us. Even though we are taking a "break", it's not really a break.

Update and Time Off

There is not too much to update. It is the same thing, levels go up, do everything right, and not pregnant. Shaylor and I have had a lot of discussion lately and we are going to take the next couple of months off. We need to, well really, I need to get myself back together. Every month it gets harder and harder and I just can't do it right now. The heartache and depression it causes is too much right now for me. So the next couple of months will be nice to just regroup and enjoy my husband. I am going to take a couple of months off of the blog too. It is a constant reminder of the hardships we are going through. Unless something happens, then there won't be any updates for a couple of months. I am sorry to depress you, but I hope you understand.

Before I go, I want to just send a special thanks to my family and Tara and Dusty. The support they have shown to us goes above and beyond what I could ever imagine.

I appreciate all the prayers, PLEASE, PLEASE don't stop. We need them now more than ever.

Hopefully the next time we update, there will be good news.

What a month!

There has been so much going on. I know many of you are just waiting to hear what news we have this month. There is nothing positive to report. My levels went up again to 57. This is incredible as the doctor put it. So after we found that out, we were anxiously waiting. I had decided to not test until last Sat. That morning I started. It was so hard because my period was late and we were just hoping for the best. I have probably taken it harder this month than any other month. I am trying to stay strong and positive but I am beat down. I know it is in God's hands, but I don't know what else we can do. We are going on 14 months of this trying business. I guess right now, we are talking about our options and maybe other routes we can go down. I am hoping God will give us some answers as to what we need to do. I know it has started bothering Shaylor more and more, but he is such a supportive husband and trying to stay positive for me. He keeps reassuring me that we will have our day. I don't know if I am taking it so hardthis month because I ovulated on Shaylor's birthday, and i just knew that would be the best birthday present I could have given him. Shortly after Shaylor's birthday, my grandmother passed away. I was hoping to have a little bambino breweing away, so I could say "You were in Mommy's tummy the last days of Granny's life." I am hoping Granny will send some baby dust our way from Heaven. It has just been a hard month for us. I know many of you are praying, and we appreciate it more than words can express. Please don't stop now, and if anything PRAY HARDER PLEASE! I know that is asking a lot, but yall are our family and I feel like I can ask that of you.

I am going to the doctor in the morning for an u/s to check my ovaries. I am hoping to have enough courage to ask some pretty in depth questions and to try to get some answers. I will start round 3 of clomid tomorrow. Let's just pray that the third time is the charm!

LOVE YOU ALL!

The Latest News

I got an awful e-mail this morning from Grandma, (Shaylor's gradnmother), mister, her dog passed away this morning. It is just heart breaking. We were over there yesterday and we all knew that he wouldn't make it much longer but didn't realize it was going to happen this morning. Grandma wantes some pictures of Mister and luckily we got some yesterday. So, say a little prayer for Grandma, as I am sure it will be a hard adjustment.

On the baby making... I started Clomid again on Friday. The doctor gave us some things to change. She was really surprised that I was not pregnant since my levels were up so high. Knowing what is going to be happening the next couple of weeks, I know that it was a God thing why we didn't get pregnant. I have faith and trust God that everything will happen at the right time. Please don't stop praying now.