Doctor Visit this morning

We made it through the clomid and now we start the monitoring. We went to the doctor first thing this morning to measure my follicles.

She checked my lining and it was really good. It had 3 lines, which I never have and that is what you want. Then we checked my follicles. I have 3 on my right ovary that are growing big and strong but not ready to be released. Nothing on my left ovary. So we hope that one of them on the right ovary will be our miracle. I usually have one, at most two, so the fact we have 3 is very positive!

Will update when I know more!

Infertility Awareness Week

This week is National Infertility Awareness Week (April 24-May 1, 2010), a movement to raise awareness about the disease of infertility.There's a 1 in 8 chance you know someone with the disease of infertility. They may not look sick on the outside, but they are probably suffering on the inside. Infertility effects nearly 7.3 million Americans of reproductive age.

Infertility Awareness Week

I did not know that National Infertility Week would ever mean so much to me. It is something that Shaylor and I struggle with on a daily basis. There is nothing we can do to change it.

Maybe this week you can say an extra prayer for all the couples out there that are experiencing or have experienced infertility. God hears all prayers, and they go a long way!

Count Your Blessings One by One

If you read my last post, you know that I was having a pretty hard time with everything. I cried Friday felt sorry for myself and Shaylor. I was angry that God is putting us through this, and I didn't understand why. I just felt defeated, that's the only way to describe it. No words of encouragement could have changed me. People who have not gone through this will never truly understand what it feels like.

Saturday was a new day. Shaylor ended up working over night on Friday, and when he got home Saturday, he woke me up and wanted to go to breakfast. I really didn't want to, I just wanted to lay in bed, but I got up and we headed off. We talked some about what was going on in our lives, etc. It was a nice escape from the heartache I had been feeling. I took Shaylor back home and headed to the doctor. She really is awesome that she gives up her Saturday mornings to help the patients with infertility. We talked for awhile, she did the sonogram everything looks good. She even said my body tried really hard to get pregnant. That was like music to my ears. I left the doctor's and had a new sense of hope. My body has changed and hopefully it will be our time. Shaylor finally got up and we spent the rest of the day together and looking towards a new direction for us.

Sunday came around and Shaylor was actually off so we decided to go to church. We had been going to this one church since we both moved down here. We really liked it, but for some reason, which I learned later we went to a different church. It was such an amazing experience. The sermon was on being discontent and about how we desire so many things in life instead of being thankful for what we had. I cried the whole church service just thinking about how all I have wanted is a baby and have forgotten about everything else. The preacher referred to a hymn that is now what I say to myself everyday to remind me of the blessings in my life.

Count your blessings
Name them one by one;
Count your many blessings
See what God hath done

So the Cycle Begins

Here is our little story of the last couple of days. We were on a roller coaster ride, that's for sure. My period was a couple of days late, and I am not going to lie Shaylor and I were a little excited and hopeful. So, after going back and forth all day yesterday, I decided to stop and get a test on my way home. Shaylor wasn't going to be home until 5 so I thought perfect, if it comes out positive I have some time I can do something exciting to tell him we are pregnant. So, I get home and pee on the stick, nothing happens. No lines show up, NOTHING. I had a faulty test. I was so frustrated that of course that would happen to me. Shaylor gets home from work and says, "Lets go buy a test." I told him I already did and showed it to him, he just laughed. I just knew that was a sign that I shouldn't have done it. So, this morning lo and behold Aunt Flo showed up. To the doctor I go tomorrow.

I was pretty down last night. I just feel that I am failing my husband. I can't give him the one thing that he deserves more than anything in the world. It has been a hard battle internally for me. He reassures me that he doesn't feel that way, and that he is just blessed to have me as his wife.

We are going to give it the 6 months that the doctor said to give it, and just hope and pray that something will happen. It is in God's hands, and He will bless us with a child one way or another. I just pray for strength to make it through these next few months.

The Results Are In...

And they were not what we were hoping for. My levels are lower now then when we started this journey. So, back to clomid and being monitored all month long. The good news is we know it works for me, so why not give it another chance. Hopefully with knowing now what our not 1 but 2 problems are we can get pregnant.

Please keep the prayers coming.

The Waiting Game…AGAIN!!!!

So we sit and we wait again! Seems like when it comes to getting pregnant that’s what you have to do. I went on Tuesday to get Day 21 blood drawn. (Day 21 is to check ovulation and progesterone.) When we first started this battle, my progesterone was low and I had to go on Clomid. My body responded very well to it, but I did NOT like the side effects and neither did Shaylor. I have not taken it since August and it’s been a nice break. We took the blood on Tuesday to see if my levels went up so hopefully we don’t have to take it any more. When your levels are low you risk a high chance of a miscarriage. After all this, the last thing we want is to deal with that.

So, here we are waiting for the results and wondering what is in store for us in the coming weeks.